MARNER R. CAMPBELL – BENJAMIN
Poetry that will follow you through every
tear-drop and every heart beat of your love life!
If you look up the word rampant in the Webster’s New World Thesaurus you will see an abundance of definitions that I have chosen to use for my writings of this book! You see, love is like having all the varieties of apples that God made all in one barrel! Granny Smiths aren’t my type, but many love the tart-sour, hard, lime-green delicacy. The Gala is nice, sweet, but not too sweet, just tasty enough to keep you chomping on it for the moment. The Golden delicious is my kind of apple – sweet, smiling, bright, and you can eat them forever and ever!
Love is like apples, don’t you think? Sometimes you can have a golden, yellow, bright, cheery, sweet day, then somewhere down the road along comes a Granny Smith, and I just have a hard time getting that one down. Galas are nice any time of the year, and if you are having a down moment, you really would rather have a Gala than a Granny Smith, but you take what you are given! As an old song used to say, you love the one you are with!
Did you go look up rampant in the Webster’s New World Thesaurus yet? Well here is the list of words: raging, uncontrolled, growing without check, violent, vehement, impetuous, rank, turbulent, tumultuous, profuse, plentiful, unruly, wanton, rife, prevalent, dominant, predominant, excessive, impulsive, impassioned, intolerant, unrestrained, extravagant, overabundant, and the last one ends with a good thought – sweeping the country like wildfire!
I’m in my fourth marriage now, this will hopefully be my last. I have been in love a few times, and this book will express all the rhymes and rhythms of all my loves. I find the word rampant covers all of my emotions, my angers, my joys, my cares, my pains, my unforgiveness, my tortures, my lusts, my wantons, my passions, and my desires! I hope you enjoy reading my poems as much as I enjoyed living them.
Marner R. Campbell-Benjamin
About the Author
Marner R. Campbell–Benjamin
Marner Rae grew up in Ocala, Florida, where she graduated from Ocala High School, known today as Forest High School. Marner has always enjoyed writing as far back as grade school. Marner’s first published work was inspired by her 7th grade peers. The booklet was entitled, AS I SEE IT, a collection of poetry on nature, Yahweh, and jingles. An article was published in the News/Sun-Sentinel, Ft. Lauderdale, Florida in June, 1985, entitled, Christian Poets Meet to Share Work and Spirit, featuring Marner Rae, by The Christian Poetry Association of America. In 1986, Marner’s work entitled, Jesus Is The Only Way Out, was published in an anthology called: The Christian Poetry Association of America. Marner has recited at churches, parties, weddings, and has appeared on local and national television. In 2002, she appeared on CBS, Channel 11 in Colorado Springs, Colorado, on the noon show with other artists celebrating Black History Week.
Marner earned a Psychology degree in Gainesville, Florida, in 1972. Over the years she has worked with the elderly as a Certified Nurses Assistant and enjoys working with Alzheimer’s patients. She recently received her Bachelor of Science Degree in Human Services from Phoenix University. Marner has volunteered her time at the National Alliance for the Mentally Ill (NAMI), teaching classes that educate the public on mental illnesses. She has interned at Family Crisis Services, Inc., located in Canon City, Colorado, where she has volunteered helping women with domestic violence and rape crises in Fremont and Custer counties. Marner is married to Gene Benjamin II and has three grown children and five grandchildren. Her hobbies include internet research, cooking, reading biblically spiritual materials, and writing poetry. Today, Marner and Gene minister over the internet via social media. Here is a link to her youtube channel: Marner's youtube channel In the future she plans to write children’s stories prompted by her first booklet of poems.
A Chance to Love
Please give me a chance to love
Don’t take from me again
You keep putting me through these flip-flop changes
Time and time again – the walls keep crawling to me
Can’t I just face one solid twenty-four hours without this pain?
You knew the reason why we always decided to keep it this way
So we can go on without the world knowing our every move
Please just listen to me once again – I want no more pain – no more pain
Let’s think about what we’re doing to each other so we can change the colors
I’d like some pink in my life, some yellow and some gold
I’d just like to have you love me – all body and soul
So please just give me a chance to love
Don’t take from me again
Oh, or would it be asking too much to want this way
Please just let me love you and take away the pain
I’ll never give this way to another – so stay by my side – don’t hide
Please give me a chance to LOVE – to love you – again!
A Tear For You
Today was a sad Tuesday
A lonely time
Thought about you – you leaving me behind
Clouds soaring across the sky
Sun shining high
You were on my mind
You leaving me behind
Loving you is so magical
Knowing you is rare, unknown
You and I will win
We’re spiritual twins
Yeshua made us into one
A zygote – awesome is He
I’m wondering – why, what, maybe where you’d been
Loving you now is like always
Having you in my world
Fills my day
So this Tuesday I cried a tear for you
I used to want everything to rhyme
I used to want everything to move
But now that I’ve received you
I just want everything to be still!
You’re touching me like my beige bra
But just not tight enough
Why can’t you cling a little closer
Dig a lot deeper
Like a roadside construction man
When they use their earth toys
I’m here for you
To touch, to feel, to kiss, to squeal
I used to think that we were in love
I used to really know we were
But now I know it was just a convenience
A shelter in the time of a storm
It appears that we will be all alone
We were just like stray cats
Animals that needed a home
Just decided to cling to each other
To keep from being on our own
My stew is churning up a brew
I’m leaving you – I’m seeking someone new
I’m praying for a diamond man
Lover whose love isn’t blind
Diamond man come and set me free
I need love, passion
Some riches for you and me
Someone who will treat me kind
Someone whose love isn’t blind
Please come quickly – angels send him my way
Please send my diamond man – don’t let it wait another day
Diamond man – diamond man – I’ll love you forever
Come now – I will wait for you!
Thinking, blinking of you
Patterns of your kiss warms my soul
Licking, picking you has sizzled my life
How amazing you are
How mystifying is your love
Touching, blushing my eyes over you
Your nakedness soothes my inner spirit
Craving, slaving, you’ll be mine forever
How enraptured we are together
Panting, fainting over the power of you
I’m your queen, you’re my king
Kiss me, miss me every hour, every moment
Whisper you love me now and forever
I’m taken – no mistaken
I’ll love you like Yeshua loves us
Shaking, baking inside of you
Hotter than fried corn fritters
Take me, make me your absolute
Satisfy my desire – I’m on fire
You darling enrapture me!
Months of agony
Weeks of pain
Here come those frozen tears again
You said you wanted me
You said I do
Look at what you put me through
Indeed it was a lot of wasted years
Just think – I ended up with
God Does Favors
Yes, I did wrong, sinful things
Things that make you cry, fret, sing!
My God, such a friend, such a Man
Who I can call on – grab – hold His hand
It was one of those days, I walked away
Pushed His love aside, didn’t dare pray
I wanted it all my way, I was boss
We sometimes forget the price – the cost!
God IS – the Power, the Prayer, the Chair
He’s reaching out – Teaching out – Reaching out
To love you – hold you – scold you – no doubt
Come! Come abide in His arms
He’ll make you strong – address your wrongs
God – keep loving me – keep correcting my soul
Carry me, comfort me, muzzle me, you’re in control
God you are my ladder to success – you are my Shining Star!
I look for you to pull me out – when I get stuck in the tar
I will keep looking forward to your wonderful, delicious flavors
Master, my Savior, thank you again and again for doing me favors!
You said you’d never leave me
You promised me – you wouldn’t
You’re walking out of my life
Telling me – you didn’t
How could you ever hurt me
Why do you make me cry
You promised – you promised
Oh you lie
Good byes always bring rivers to my eyes!
Happiness with You
Takin’ a moment to find
Happiness with you.
Life’s been grand
Life’s been nuts
Sorrow . . . cheers
The experience of life
Vary day by day
You brought me a heart
For a brand new start
It’s filled now,
You filled it with joy,
It’s filled with you.
But God’s inside so have
He’ll uphold ya,
Just like He told ya
By His grace through you,
You gave me strength
To take hold of joy and happiness.
Soothe the pain,
To start again,
Happiness and hope.
Faith in Him
And joy with you
I thank Him today,
That you came my way
No jokes, no tricks
There’s trust with you,
And I take a moment to enjoy
Happiness with you.
Never knew you would grow to love me
Just knew I loved you so
Like winter comes in spring
To ruin your pretty petunias
Some times I thought I nagged you to death
Only to myself
God told me to hold on
Said your love would start to bloom
And your leaves would start to turn
You’ll begin to kiss me
And my heart will begin to burn
Oh I love you so
My love - never want you to go
Roses you bring me in all seasons
Cause you’re my reason I sing
Roses are red – violets seem blue
I thought it was all impossible till I found you!
Some came into my life – and others they went
None of them, my darling, were heavenly sent!
Ever since I was a little boy – the female impressed my jumbo heart
But, never truly have I wanted to take one all apart
I hope to see my whole life change from a puzzle to a pearl!
I’ve searched and searched till I found you girl!
Carolyn, you’ll be my center and I’ll be your life
And the things that we will do together will be all
Pleasing and suffice
The hardships will come – this I know
But I’ll hold on tighter then – not letting go!
When the rains and the storms come at our door
I know that you will come to me even more!
Wipe the tears from your eyes
Because you won’t cry alone
Besides – God still loves to listen – especially when we are His own!
I love you – I adore you
I thank you for your love!
Sincerely, I know it was a gift sent from above
We will cement our hearts as ONE on this lovely day
We will sing – shout and pray!
I give you my heart and soul as I give you my ring!
We will be as precious vineyard grapes – we will forever cling!
Once my life was all in threads – so totally bent!
I praise God for you – because you are
Written for the bride and groom, my brother Eugene L. Harvey and Carolyn Harvey, his wife, on 1-28-1995.
If You Don’t – Don’t
If you don’t love me
Don’t touch – don’t touch
Although I do want you – so much – so much
But, if you don’t love me
Don’t touch – don’t touch
Although I’m aching for you
So much – so much
I wish you did love me
But if you don’t love me
You I do want
But please – if you don’t love me
Don’t – don’t
As I lay here above my husband’s back
I can thank God above
That He made me black!
Let’s Make Love
Lick me like your favorite ice cream cone
Soothing, nicely, baby down to the bone
Love me like your Mercedes Benz
I watch how you wash it
I observe how you wax it
How you touch and shine every interior fixture
Love me gently – love me with your magic mixture
Let’s make love!
Love and Love Some More
There are many times in life that people can really hate. We argue, we fight we fret until it’s too late. That certain person is just sort of in your way. Don’t push them out – please begin to pray. Are you really wondering how you can enter that person’s door, so it can be quite easy if you would love and love some more. Why should I love him after what he’s done to me. He’s abused me, he scorned me, he’s put me down coldly.
Yes we all feel sometimes we are being cheated when we respect our foes. We say we love Jesus, we say we want to go. If we really do we would love, and love some more. Even if they disappoint you, kick you, spit upon your face, don’t hate them. Remember you haven’t been in their place.
Jesus loves us, not for what we are, but for where we’ve been. If you think about it as such, you’ll take this person in. All of us are trying to find the way to love, only he the Father can give it to us pure from above.
Treat your neighbor gentle even when they’re rough. Treat your enemies jovial even if it’s tough. If you want happiness for sure, love. Oh love and love some more, joy will fill your days, peace will fill your soul. Your patience will grow, your tongue will be bold. Love, my friends, love and love some more!
Love Crazy Love
Love left me cold and alone for four years
Love crippled my soul and froze my tears
Love had me sleeping – sleepless to no avail
Love stopped my communications - paused my mail
Love had me angry never wanting to love again
Love brought me grief, sorrow and torturous pain
Love had me so low with no reason to live
Love tracked down my memories once again
Love made me hate
Love caused me to sin
Love always visiting my heart
Persuading me to make a new start
Love once again has brought me relief
Love came and visited and turned back the leaf
Love, love, crazy love – brought me a man
A kind cheery soul named Gene Benjamin
Oh love that crazy love
What will I ever do without it
Love oh love, you captured me once again - I can’t quit
Love oh my love never leave me
You have eased my life
Love, love has made me your wife
Yeshua is good
Psalms 107:8 says, “Oh that men would praise the Lord for his
goodness, and for his wonderful works to the children of men.”
Love for Keeps
Your touch thrills my every nerve outlet
My body shivers and becomes red upset
You reach beyond my wildest dreams
Sweetness, I come apart at the seams
Your touch – your kiss brings me to my utmost high
Then it comes – seeps me to the sky
Darling it seeps me – seeps me
You alone fit my key
It’s you that seeps me
Your love boils over my tea kettle
Mess with me baby – mettle, mettle
Put your hands all over me
You alone fit my key
Feel me, tickle me, lick me well
Let my toy ooze and swell
I know it’s you I love
No one else can be
Be where you are and turn the key
So hold me close forever in my sleep
Let us love forever, eternally,
It’s love for keeps!
Loving Me Like You Mean It
Really wonder how you truly feel
Was it for convenience that caused you to marry me
You had been single for quite some time
Playing your bachelor games
Kissing me didn’t seem to say much
You would rather eat eggs than wet my lips
You so adventurous climbing hills riding hills
Camping out spinning out
Every time I want to go down on you, you push me away
Never begging me to do more – stay
What did I do – the weather changes – somehow the dew’s wet
Seems lately you’re loving me like you mean it
Did our prayers reach heaven
You’ve gotten over your past love